Kathrynoh wrote a post today that got me thinking about honesty (on a tangent). Have I been honest? I'd like to think that I'm an honest person but I am known not to share all my thoughts for whatever reason. So I may not be dishonest but I am reserved in what I write on my blog.
For the most part, you don't need to know every private detail of what I think, feel and do but I have realised that I haven't spoken about my actual weight lately and my weight is the subject that got me blogging in the first place.
Oh...and can you tell I'm on holidays? I haven't been able to spend this much time blogging in months!
So this is it. I've been eating like a greedy pig. Plain and simple. Burgers, chips, chocolates, coke...it is actually making me feel literally sick in the stomach but I've succumbed to the bullshit I tell myself of "I can't help it, I don't know why, I will stop tomorrow" and do I, nope. There's no other reason than pure laziness so I exercise more to compensate. How stoopid is that and even contradictory!? I exercise more to eat more.
So here are the stats.
Healthy Weight Range (178cm): 79-63kg
WW Goal Weight: 75kg
Ideal Goal Weight: 70kg
Current Weight: 76.6kg
Obviously, I am in the Healthy Weight Range but being at the heavier end of the scale has not been ideal for me. I feel heavy and that could be more from all the bad eating and side effects. My clothes are also tight. I was sitting on a nice 73kg for most of 2006 and that felt great. Ideally I would like to sit on 70kg but I'm not mental about it.
So what's a few kilos? I know. Some people need to lose 60kg and I'm quibbling about a couple. I just thought I'd share this after a year of maintaining succesfully because the brain stuff still continues to mess with me but much much less these days. It's not always easy to be good so it's important for me to be able to catch myself out before the extra couple of kilos become another 10, 20, 30 extra. I need to be a little more vigilant.
Bring on the 10 day vegetarian detox! I start this coming Monday 8th January. It's hideously expensive (and I'm not entirely convinced) but I need a rude shock to wake myself up from this gluttony of late and get back on track. I'll let you know what I think of the program and if I think it was worth it. Remember, different strokes for different folks!